The only solution for these types of problems (aside of usual phychotherapy/physiology that you need to rule out first with help of professionals!) - is to genuinely stop giving a single damn whether you're alone or not.

Right after that moment you will become much much more attractive as a person. And you will release a ton of energy to focus on things that are more important (like your life goals etc).

But you can't fool yourself and pretend that you don't care while still being worried about the outcomes inside. It's not "fake it till you make it" type of inner game.

That is a key to your problem (after you solved main mommy/daddy issues if any with a decent therapist).

No amount of shallow "be yourself, be interested in others" advice will help until you have a foundation to be congruent in these tactical actions. But if you have that foundation that type of advice is mostly redundant.

Been there, done that.

BTW, you're 19 and actually at 19 this is not all that abnormal. Lots of kids in college find themselves in your situation.

My childhood was a life of constant transition. Despite my outgoing personality, we moved often, so I had few acquaintances and no lasting friends. Critically, I rarely saw my father, a socially, athletically, intellectually, financially successful man whose affirmation and guidance I would have benefitted from. With no friends and no dad I was adrift.

In my teens I began to idealize romantic companionship, but my emotional neediness drove away anyone I was interested in. This feedback loop (loneliness causing antisocial behavior, reinforcing loneliness) needed to be broken.

The turn around in my life was coming to faith in Jesus in college. I started consistently attending a campus Bible study, and made several lifelong friends, and many more positive relationships. With an active, relationship oriented community, I no longer craved romantic validation, so my disposition to women gradually shifted from neediness to cordially but confidently focusing on other things. It took a few years for this dynamic to mature in me, but by the time I was a college senior, several women around me started expressing interest in me — something I’d never experienced before. A couple of them were not my type, but one in particular turned out to be a generous, agreeable woman with a kind family, who was also quite gorgeous, someone my younger self never could have attracted. I married her, and now I get to be the father that I never had to our children.

Reading your post reminds me of the ache I felt as a young man. But I think that if you find your purpose, you can find your people. And while you never fully “arrive” there is a peace you get just from journeying in the right direction.

I'm personally into rock climbing and the social scene at a good climbing gym is really fantastic. Climbers need climber friends (if only for the selfish need of a belayer). Its great to share notes on a climb, or chat about gear, or dream/plan good outdoors trips.

Not suggesting you take up climbing. I'm using it as an example. But you want some hobby you're gonna take seriously that has a social component.

And, stop being so hard on yourself. Making friends is hard actually (especially making really good ones). Give yourself some grace.

So let me offer an alternative, healthier way of dealing with discomfort, especially of the soul: the first step is accepting the situation and making the best of it. Issues of loneliness aren't easily solved by joining the church or the cricket club, despite many comments along those lines; it's good to realise that loneliness sticks with us and gets more painful when around people. You won't ever feel so lonely as in a crowd.

There is a difference between loneliness and solitude. Learn solitude. Learn to be comfortable with yourself. Know yourself, and chances are, you don't have a clue about yourself at 19, and you probably won't be for a few more decades of self-reflection, so get started. Then, when you'll find comfort in yourself, comfort in being by yourself, joy even, you'll be ready to face that door that is the cause of your great sadness today. And you'll come from a place where companionship is no more a matter of life-and-death, but from a more mature position that understand that people come and go, might love you and might hurt you, but the only constant source of joy, respite and calm lies within you, and it's been there all along.

I'm not sure any of this would've made any sense to my 19 years old self, but no one sat down to explain this to me either, so I hope it strikes a chord. Just don't blame yourself for an ill society where connection is ever harder.

-- a fellow lonely person that found joy in solitude, appreciating those heartfelt, fleeting moments with worthy humans.

You can't go into this with the goal of gaining something. Go in with the goal of giving of yourself -- your time, attention and interest.

Do the reps on this and you will become a person people want to be around.

There was a period when I put space between myself and my main friends which resulted in loneliness, but I found this created a new space to connect with my siblings who were really interesting and had grown in ways I hadn't noticed.

Also, as Charlie Munger always said: "Invert! Invert! Invert!". Try doing the opposite of what you normally do. This requires of course paying attention to what you normally do (or don't do). Instead of waiting for others to reach out to you, for example, you might instead approach them.

Be okay with the fear of rejection. When we are kids we make friends so easily because we haven’t yet learned to protect ourselves from rejection.

An interesting exercise I had to do recently as part of a teambuilding exercise: offer a hug to 5 random strangers. I promise this will teach you something about yourself, and about others.

In any case, just know that a lot of people struggle with it - much much more than you could imagine. It's worth trying to fix it though.

Good luck !

First of all, have realistic expectations. You might not find that _one_ friend easily that can fulfill all your needs in one package, but you can become part of friend groups. Individual connections might grow from that.

To get there:

1. Ensure you are in a place where things are happening, e.g. a larger town or city. This just gives you more options, but even small towns have things happening.

2. Become part of social hobbies, where people frequently meet at an organized time and place. e.g. team sports, local theater groups, book club, makerspace, cooking courses, etc...., whatever you have an interest in. Pick more than one if you can. Live firmly in the real world and not online.

3. Show up and keep showing up, you need to become a familiar face to people. One-off gatherings aren't great for this, but work with what you've got.

4. Participate. Are they looking for volunteers for event X, participate. Do they need someone to help do Y, participate. People are getting together to do race Z, participate. Someone needs an hour help moving some stuff, show up. No need to overdo it, just be there and be seen as a reliable part of the group.

5. Be patient.

Especially participate in new things or initiatives, the groups are less firmly set in stone and it's easier to become part of something. Plus by participating you'll learn of other things happening in the community.

If you "don't like anything", work with what's available and pick the things that are most OK. Part of liking things is doing them. If you're in a tiny village where they only play soccer once a week, well guess what, you're going to learn to play soccer now. The activity is the excuse to be around people. If small talk bores you but small talk is what's on offer, have small talk. Life is not a stream of "big moments", the mundane is the glue.

Do not expect anything. Keep any ego firmly in check. Go with the flow and be relaxed, whatever happens happens. People can smell neediness.

Good luck !

It seems like you measure "friendship" not by the time spent with them when you go to events or in school, but what happens afterwards. In other words, you are discounting to zero the moments that are actually happening in your life, for an imagined future of what a friendship might turn out to be. But life only ever happens moment to moment. That time that you spend with people at an event, that IS the thing.

There is no "friendship certificate": some people, you'll only spend ten minutes with; some, you might spend an afternoon with; others you might end up seeing once a week for a term. You might date a girl for a fortnight, or a couple of months, and then break up and never see each other again. It's ALL GOOD.

If I understand correctly, none of the above would qualify in your eyes as "real friendship", only the deep, deep kind. You might find it helpful to learn about Dunbar's number, and the size of the model's concentric social circles. Most people end up with 1-2 very close friends (possibly including their spouse). That is the outcome over a lifetime of making connections. Popular culture markets this idea that we should all be carousing with a tightly knit group of friends - no statistical social evidence bears this out.

When sinking into deep analysis about all your self-perceived inadequacies, your attention beam is directed inwards. That's unhealthy. When it's directed OUT, into the world, it takes you out of your head, and lets you see that everyone, every single one (person or otherwise), is struggling in their own way. Everyone's got a thing. Looking out builds empathy and kindness and affection towards things that make you happy, and gazing inwards makes you miserable.

You are surrounded by people in school, and are at a stage in life where you get to be interested in whatever. Any experience you have, even if it doesn't lead to lifelong friendships, is worthy in the space of time it occupies.

Throughout my undergrad I had friends come and go. I'm not in touch with anyone I met at Uni during those years. It doesn't make the actual time spent with these people any less special.

One mistake I made when I was in university was have a baseline assumption that I was unlikable or similarly flawed, hence I would always find reasons why someone disliked me and pushed them away as a defence mechanism. Regardless of if it's true it's a horribly unproductive mindset to have and I encourage you to fight it.

Also you won't make friends by reading books. It's tempting to overanalyse but human connection isn't something you learn by reading, you learn it by doing it. A bunch. Go travel and see the world.

This happens in some school environments (eg: long-term group projects), many work environments, team sports, certain vacation environments, etc.

Join a language class, or a sports club, or find employment somewhere, or go on a hostel vacation.

Make sure it's something you want to do for its own sake - enough so that you're not obsessing over befriending people.

One thing I've learned is that you yourself must make an effort first, even if you think it's unfair or if it's a lot of work, otherwise you'll be lonely forever.

Do you know if you have any sort of neurodivergence? That may be a part of it too. You say small talk tends to bore you yet that is how people start mingling at first. Maybe people are put off by you being put off on small talk.

If you feel very unhappy or unhappy, ie, not content, more than 30-60% of the time, you'd probably benefit from talking to a therapist and learning about how you can like yourself more. You will always have yourself throughout your life, whereas people will come and go. Learn to be your own best friend first.

  > To make friends, be one -- figure out what this means 
  > Be vulnerable -- the quickest way to connection I have found is to be ok with sharing your vulnerability first  
  > Be ok with rejection -- the danger of being vulnerable is getting rejected, be ok with that. Plenty of fish in the sea
  > Love yourself -- learn to give yourself grace
  > Practice gratitude
  > Serve/Volunteer/Teach -- you have unique valuable skills, figure out what they are and help others
  > Join clubs that excite you -- if none exist create one. (derek sivers: how to start a movement, consider being the second person)
  > Find your tribe online -- if none exist create one (see above)

I have really good friends now. The actionable advice I would give is:

1. Be genuine and don’t fake yourself. Don’t try to behave in a way you think might impress someone, and don’t force yourself in trying to become someone else to become friends with someone. (Take this as a fundamental advice and I will reference it)

2. Put yourself out there. Try to be more of an extrovert. Approach people for help, If you wanna talk to someone, just talk. (And take advice 1 here, don’t fake yourself).

3. Look, there are definitely people out there who are your type and you’d be great friends. It’s just you have to keep putting yourself out there until you ‘find’ or ‘attract’ the right kind of people. Participate in events, be a part of communities.

It won’t happen if you consciously try. Don’t be on a lookout, just try to express yourself and take all opportunities to socialise.

I see some straight up bad advice being given in here (being obsessed with finding relationships, which is human need does not perpetuate the problem, it is a biological drive to solve it)

And some good advice: Be genuinely curious about others. Really listen to them. Look in their eyes when they are talking to you and when you are talking to them. (This has done wonders for me in trying to build community!)

For me personally, being christian has helped a little (church ends up being a source of community). Is there any spiritual or religious practice you could find a place of worship to be around others who share your belief with? I'm not trying to impose my faith, but rather my practice of being around those who share my core beliefs.

Another thing that really really helped me was getting over my preoccupation with older friends. My closest friend is 30 years older than me. Literally my dad's age. He is a consistent and reliable guy, and despite having somewhat different backgrounds, he's given mid-30s me a LOT of wisdom and encouragement.

> I’m socially anxious and keep to myself

> small talk tends to bore me

> it’s exhausting always having to text them to hang out, if I don’t then we never talk again

It's highly possible that you have undiagnosed autism spectrum disorder. I say this because I am reading a book right now about ASD[0] and a lot of this is ringing true, especially the part about being confused why friends are dropping you. Speak to a psychologist and see what they think (or read the book first, and then speak to them). I am 30 now and am just cluing in that I might be on the spectrum, and oh boy do I wish I had caught it when I was younger. (It's also possible that you don't have ASD but some other condition like avoidant personality disorder, but whatever it is, it is so much easier to solve it once you've figured it out.)

[0]: https://www.isthisautism.com/

What I love about the modern world is how for any niche activity there seems to be a community. You'll find that those that partake in the activity will have conversations beyond small talk. And when not talking you're doing this thing you like to do!

Its important to do it intensely and in a place with people IRL.

Focus on that for a while and you'll feel better and start hanging out with people.

I'd pop your head into random events in college, even if it's groups you don't feel align with you.

Try some courses that tend to require higher levels of interaction (like theatre)

I wouldn't join a fraternity, but that's a way some connect with others.

Turn yourself into a billboard, wearing T-shirts for things you like (bands, geeky things, etc). A "cool shirt" comment can start a conversation.

Start smoking. Ok, don't do that. But when I was in school it gave me a reason to congregate in the smoking section of campus. Terrible idea, but it did help me meet some people that almost 30 years later I still consider friends.

> What am I supposed to do? Be lonely and without any kind of company and human connection my entire life?

You won't be. I'm 48 now, and while I'm somewhat well adjusted, when I was your age, and even a bit older, I was such an introverted outcast. Still am, I just learned how to communicate better over time and more or less relate to people where they are, even if we are different. We all grow at different rates. That doesn't help your sense of loneliness today, but as you discover yourself and who your "tribe" is, those connections will form and grow, even if it seems impossible today.

You are going through a normal phase of growth, and need to be able to sit with discomfort and question it. You will likely find yourself cherishing these moments when you are older.

I'm near 50 and have basically zero friends. I have colleagues and acquaintances who I get along with. I'm also married with children. I always found it hard to make and keep friends.

I was badly bullied at school and felt worthless and didn't have the confidence at that time to make friends, though I couldn't see it, but I really wanted to, I just didn't know how. At the time I was lonely and depressed. I joined the military just before I was your age and had buddies until I left and it was the military that sorted me out.

With the benefit of age and lack of hormones I've come to accept that I have no friends for reasons. It doesn't bother me anymore. I've also realised I'm not a good friend, I make no effort, I'm not really interested in other people and find their problems annoying. I'm difficult and I don't really like people. And I like my own company.

Do I worry about loneliness? No, but I often wonder if I didn't have my family would I get lonely... I don't know. All I know is that at the moment I'm not and I don't think I will be. But change is constant.

All this is to say that you're young, it's likely not as bad as you think it is right now (I don't say this to lessen what you feel), and you will get passed this. Just be yourself, do what interests you and make the effort, even if it's not reciprocated. There's no shame in making unappreciated effort. Move on and don't over-think shit. Eventually it'll come.

Follow your interests and your values, be patient, and eventually you'll find into your people.

Once your general state of health/emotional well-being improves, you'll see that this state of craving others also fades.

So how do you improve your well-being/health? The cornerstone should be paying attention to your body, your sensations, feelings and listening. Resting well when tired. Eating well. Noticing your thoughts, especially negative thoughts about yourself. Learn to be kinder to yourself. If you do these things, you'll feel better and you'll become a bit more attractive to others.

I heard a saying once that is a hard truth that stuck with me. “If you want to be loved, be loveable.” Take stock of yourself and your confidence. Choose some areas for growth and accomplishment that you can get after independently. You’re in college so it’s a great time to build yourself with intention.

For example, learn to play music. Get into a sport. Find your interests and get after them with gusto.

Skills and interests will give opportunity for connection not just with people but with yourself. You can be so much more than you are today.

You have two good things going for you here:

- you're able to hold a conversation with people, even if it might not be as deep a conversation as you'd like it to be.

- you're funny and can joke around with people.

It sounds like you might have some surface level relationships and want deeper connections with people, which is totally understandable. Small talk can be boring at first, but it often opens the possibility of deeper relationships. I'd recommend low-stakes/activity based social interactions and seeing where they take you.

Some ideas:

- If you're on your way to the dining hall to get a meal, ask your dorm mates if they wanna join

- Colleges have a movie night on weekends to see a movie for free, ask class mates, dorm mates to go.

- Does your campus have like a rec/game center (think pool, air hockey, games etc). Another thing to ask people to.

You might have to suffer through a lot of rejection before you get takers. After that you might have to suffer through small talk about the weather, where someone is from, what their major is, etc before you get to the deeper connections.

Feel free to reach me at alexbwell12 at gmail dot com. Don’t have any crazy wisdom to pass down — just know how much it sucked for me.

If you live on campus (you definitely should if possible), make friends with the people who live in your dorm. Keep your door open at all times and be friendly to everyone around. People will just drop in. If your uni has college basketball or football, become a fan of the team and go to the games or watch em in the dorm.

In college you have tons of people around you with all sorts of different backgrounds. Rest assured, someone will have common interests with you and will find you fascinating. You don't need a lot of friends in this life, just a few good ones. Not everyone will like you, that's okay.

I'd also recommend talking to a professional, you might need to practice your social interactions. They have groups for this sorta thing if they deem you ready, but there's something more going on that has put you in this situation I'd wager.

Good luck!

This is called catastrophizing. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/basics/catastrophizing

If you take nothing else away from my comment, I would suggest finding out why you do that, and try to change that mental behavior. It might not directly help with loneliness, but it might make your life more satisfactory.

That said, while other folks on HN will have some advice you'll find useful, I'm not sure how applicable my experiences are to anyone else. My advice would be to examine the things you're interested in, especially if they're weird or "cringe", and find people who share those interests. Be shamelessly authentic.

If you don't have any such interests, I dunno.

As for the other. Most friends I’ve ever met went like this: meet at an event relating to a shared interest (first you have to go to things, next you have to talk to people): find a person I genuinely like and respect, talk to them, do something together (study, eat, coffee), listen more than you talk, try to be as good a friend to them as possible.

And I’m easy. Anyone wants to be my friend and I’ll be theirs. (So long as they treat me as a friend —don’t get me started about people who claim to be friends but who don’t treat me like a friend). This leads me to having some really weird friends. This also leads me to having friends who always treat me right.

I’m an introvert so I tend to prioritize small numbers of deep connections over many shallow friendships. Everyplace I go I find the person I like best and I try to get to know them. I talk to them, listen, hear what they’re about, engage with things they find interesting.

At 19 you’ve never had a friend? I honestly don’t believe it. I suspect you’re experiencing a depressive episode that is clouding your memory. Every child has had a friend. In grade school or middle school. Call your mother and ask her (I’m serious). I honestly think you’re not remembering clearly. It happens, I don’t know how to fix it, but looking for it might’ve a start. (If you haven’t I’d start looking for something you’re doing that drives people away. But I honestly don’t think you could be doing something without knowing it)

Join clubs for things you find interesting. Get a job doing things you find interesting. Do favors for people, ask favors of people. Look for friendships in unlikely places. I once became friends with a professor who I did computer work for. We just got along. He invited me over for dinner with him and his wife. I was on his Christmas list (he made mix cds for people, I still have two he made me)

Look at all these comments chiming in with advice or similar stories. No way to tell how useful they are for you in particular but pretty neat how many people responded to your personal question outreach on a tech forum.

I don't have advice for you but I (and apparently lots of other folks here) feel for you and want good things for you just because you're a person and I think that's nice.

The holidays can be pretty depressing but we're almost through and I think you'll be ok.

I don't like to overpromise and I'm busy as hell but if you want another surface level friend (or at least some candid feedback) via email I'm game (hn @ <my username>.com). You mentioned this isn't really missing in your life so no worries but if you're feeling like the world is closing in maybe it can help.

Good luck out there. You've got this.

https://www.theguardian.com/society/2025/aug/15/booze-gen-z-...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZTKaM_bu9iY

The best suggestion I received was to imagine where I wanted to be long term, and to go on working on that. Somehow it took me out of the loop of trying to find an answer outside of my own self.

The other thing that helped was to stop trying to do the same as what others around are (saying they are) doing and be honest with myself and others about what I wanted.

I'll give you an extreme example: there was a Claude AI chatbot that was obsessed with the Golden Gate Bridge. This bot (a computer... a machine) had personality and was considered quirky, funny, endearing, and people loved it.

- travel as much as you possibly can

- get out of the house and as much as you can

- talk to strangers more

One cool thing about university is that there are lots of clubs you can join. I'd suggest you go find a club you're interested in and participate every week. Talk to people when you get the opportunity. I've read it takes around five times attending a group before people start taking your attendance seriously enough start investing time in getting to know you. Give it a few months and I'll bet you have some acquaintances that could become friends.

Join any club where you can interact socially, like martial arts, boxing, any group sports, dancing.. or if not into that try chess/literature/board games/music clubs.

Not 100% guaranteed it will find you good friends, but you will get social interactions and be able to practice social skills.

This is maybe a bit of boomer advice, but if you are a young man you wont have many friends unless you can provide value to others, or unless they think they can get something out you, that something can be as little as social currency or being interesting to hang around with, which comes from skills and life experience.

Given how long you've claimed you've been like this, it's very likely behavioral; you're giving off some characteristic that is telling most people you meet that you're not worth spending time with. It might be something as simple as avoiding eye contact, or strange body language, or not knowing how to hold even a rudimentary, surface-level conversation. These are all skills that can be learned, especially when you're still young.

I was in a similar situation when I was younger; grew up relatively isolated, barely had any friends, etc. I was socially deprived and abused as a child, and have a speech impediment that has made socializing difficult at times, but I learned how to listen and ask questions and get to know people, and I actually became quite the social butterfly for a good chunk of my 20s and 30s.

Now that I'm older, I'm back to being more isolated for personal reasons, but my life is different now and I don't care as much about it, nor am I as reliant on social connections as I used to be. Frankly, I never felt I fit in anywhere, nor have I ever truly liked anyone beyond whatever immediate social gratification I needed filling in the moment. Friendships and connections have always been fleeting, overhyped, and overblown to me, especially when I look back at my life so far and struggle to think of anyone I still care about.

Social connections are important when you're younger, but I've found the older you get, the less important they become, especially if you're smart about how you live your life.

So let’s invert it: what prevents/kills friendships?

- lying (for whatever reason) - talking too much about yourself - not asking people about their lives - being too private - being too judgmental - not empathizing - e.g. someone tells you about something hard they’re experiencing and you change the subject - not caring to help (also showing you don’t care about others that aren’t in your friend-zone) - not offering help - not being kind - not smiling (more like makes it hard for people to approach you)

Most of us want/need friends. Most of us want/need to talk to others about our lives. Someone just moved to where you live. They need a friend. They will strike a conversation w anyone.

Even people in your past probably wanted to be your friend (either coz they thought you were cool or they just needed a friend) - you can still be friends with them. I’ve become friends w people I met long after meeting them.

Asking someone how they are is not so much about the other person. It’s mostly a social ritual. But if no one is asking you how you are, they might also be intimidated by you.

As Aaron Burr would say: talk less, smile more - jk, do more of both.

if you want someone to ask you how your day is, you need to ask them how their's is.

Age 25 was also when I met my first girlfriend that lasted less than a year. Age 34 was when I met my second girlfriend, who became my wife, and how we are separated. Long story short, I'm pretty content with my life now. You can say I'm a bit of a late bloomer.

I thought I would be alone forever too, so much so that in college I aspired to be a Buddhist monk.

What helped me was learning how to be less socially awkward through work interactions. When I was 32 I solo backpacked Europe which made me seem like a more interesting person. Also I'm a bit of a people pleaser and I was helpful to some key people in my life and they are now my good friends. Also I saved and invested a good chunk of my income which kind of helps overall with confidence.

> People find me funny and when I do talk to people we have decent conversations (though small talk tends to bore me). However that doesn’t lead anywhere and doesn’t bring me any kind of comfort or fulfillment. I’ve attributed my lack of friends to something that places all the blame on me. Maybe I’m ugly, maybe I’m not funny enough, maybe I’m dumb.

I've felt all those things at some point. You don't have to be attractive or funny or a genius. I've always walked around with these recurring fantasies of being some secretly impressive superhero that saved the day publicly or had all these amazing talents and everyone would realize my worth. I realize now that everyone is too into their own lives to care, and even if they seem to admire something about you, they see it from the perspective of how it benefits themselves. This is absolutely fine, and human.

I guess what I'm saying is that you'll grow out of this phase. Right now I have all the friends I could ever want, ironically at a phase I'm my life I want to be more solitary.

If you do have a well-studied issue such as https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Autism or https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizoid_personality_disorder that interferes with socialization, you can find support groups and people who have been able to succeed even with those issues.

Some of these social problems (e.g, ones caused by missing childhood socialization experiences) are curable through practice, but others will require you to learn enough about human social behavior to mask until someone figures out a cure. It can be exhausting, (just like physical exercise can be exhausting) but it's a useful skill to have in order to do well in life.

Good luck.

You may be lonely now, but you will have some different stages in life where friendship and companionship may appear.

First - when you start working you will join a team of some sorts. Just be yourself and and make sure you attend all the team nights out.

Second - traveling. You can join tour groups and visit some cool places. Don't do this to specifically find friends but you will be part of a group and have companionship for a brief period.

Thirdly - dating. You will be able to find a partner. This is most peoples main companion in life.

Fourthly - you could join a non-work team where you can have social interactions. I can't give too much advice on this one because I am not on a team like this.

Fifthly - find a co-founder and start a company

Join an interest group on Meetup maybe.