You are 19. Why do you care? Who gives a damn? Most people are a waste of time, so why are you wasting so much time thinking about that?
The problem when you are 19 is you don't realise that you are young. You are already using language like 'my entire life', your entire life is nothing right now, most of that time you were way too young to even have much of a life apart from being a child.
So my advice is just relax, it doesn't matter. The issue is you think it does and I get you, because that is what everyone thinks at that age, but trust me when you are older you will understand, the issue is not much is going to help you right now and you prob think I am being a dick. But if you somehow remember this post in ten years time, you will be like 'that guy was right'
Go explore and enjoy life. You can do that on your own and the more you do that and the more you can get from that, the more other people will want to be around you and then it will be up to you if you want to let them in or not.
The problem when you are 19 is you don't realise that you are young. You are already using language like 'my entire life', your entire life is nothing right now, most of that time you were way too young to even have much of a life apart from being a child.
So my advice is just relax, it doesn't matter. The issue is you think it does and I get you, because that is what everyone thinks at that age, but trust me when you are older you will understand, the issue is not much is going to help you right now and you prob think I am being a dick. But if you somehow remember this post in ten years time, you will be like 'that guy was right'
Go explore and enjoy life. You can do that on your own and the more you do that and the more you can get from that, the more other people will want to be around you and then it will be up to you if you want to let them in or not.