It was a neat thing to experience.
The fact the mind is able to create these powerful visions and patterns and other realities is really incredible. We have this machinery for perceiving the world and moving though it, but that machinery is capable of so many other insane and beautiful and terrifying things - capabilities which are inaccessible except in rare instances.
It’s really quite remarkable. Underneath our prosaic experience of consciousness is something that can generate infinite fractals, awe-inspiring visions of otherworldly creatures, dream landscapes of colour and shape. Why? Where does it all come from? Is this what life would be like all the time without us filtering the information coming into our senses?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Night_hag
So, some common sensory interference might suggest many-limbed things, maybe. Like how LSD makes things wobble and crawl about.
I personally think Ayahuasca gives an amazing capacity to see the potential within the universe and within ourselves... it is nearly infinite. However if you deeply understand the world and how mis-aligned it and yourself are from that potential it can create tragedy. If you believe you are responsible for this tragedy it can create catastrophe. I don't mean to over-extend my own experiences too far.
What if there is a book that when you read it you would know for 100% certainty when you die there is no hell, and only infinite peace, unless you wanted to go back into hell. Should everybody read that book?
That's what taking Ayahuasca felt like for me. I don't think it is great to do for everyone. I'm curious to hear your thoughts as you have much more experience than me. I had a lot of challenges after taking it.
Can you explain what this means?
Like do they come in hoping to bring back a narrative?
I’ve also used NN from a pen. It gave me a strange body load and intense kaleidoscopic visuals.
The most striking memory with DMT was at night seeing a moonlight cloud full of skulls staring back down at me. I frequently saw skulls in any texture.
It was very long ago. Unfortunately the dealer was raided.
It left a noticable residue in the simplistic vape we had and a few subsequent uses still carried traces of it.
I went somewhere. Hard to explain where, but it was more real than here. I remembered this life, but I also remembered an innumerable amount more. The time was different there. I don't remember many specifics but when I came back, I remembered that I want to be here on a level that transcends this life. That ending my life here would not be what I want on some other level that is more real than here. And that this lifetime is but a spark amidst an endless flame.
I was once a big proponent for people having DMT experiences but then I learned it works very differently for different people.
Now, I believe it is an acute intervention drug for the suicidal.
It behaved very differently for me in that context. Soon after repeated treatment with it, my entire state changed. I was lifted out of poverty into well compensated employment. I bought my first house. My software skills leveled up and I shifted from being fixated on game dev to more impactful fields. I can't describe the number of changes, but I attribute it all to DMT.
It flipped a switch in my mind and I know that I am alive today only because of that.
I hope that someday, we recognize it as what it was for me: a powerful spiritual medicine.
Something I always say to people who claim these things are all just hallucinations: if a hallucination teaches you how to be a better person, gives you a reason to live, and allows you to be more open and loving, was it really a hallucination? Something to think about.