> I reframed it from "lack of focus" to "poor control over what I focus on".
That's exactly it, and why I prefer it be called an executive function disorder rather than any kind of focus disorder.
I can focus just fine. Too well, actually, to the detriment of all else, including physical needs like eating and sleeping. But I can't control it. I don't get to choose when I'm productive or when I'm not, let alone what I actually focus or work on. I could go weeks at a time where absolutely nothing is interesting enough, everything is painfully boring, and I'm so task paralyzed I just can't do anything.
Likewise, I might give into a project for 48 hours straight non stop.
It's amazing I have a job at all, to be honest. I am also autistic, and it is a special kind of hell at times.
I'm audhd also and the truly disabling part of my neurotype is the fact that I can do things and focus, I just can't choose when and where and what my focus is on.
That's exactly it, and why I prefer it be called an executive function disorder rather than any kind of focus disorder.
I can focus just fine. Too well, actually, to the detriment of all else, including physical needs like eating and sleeping. But I can't control it. I don't get to choose when I'm productive or when I'm not, let alone what I actually focus or work on. I could go weeks at a time where absolutely nothing is interesting enough, everything is painfully boring, and I'm so task paralyzed I just can't do anything. Likewise, I might give into a project for 48 hours straight non stop.
It's amazing I have a job at all, to be honest. I am also autistic, and it is a special kind of hell at times.