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dirtybirdnj
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- The gif maker workflow is fantastic, amazing how smooth it was an the output is clean and crisp. Beautiful UX I practically tripped over this feature without even thinking about it and it worked great.
- I agree with the hamburglar (lol) you did awesome work and you owe the internet nothing. the 3d printing community is rife with "stl please" expectations that everyone wants to share everything and it should all be free. Give it away if you can, but I think its important to have some value to the creative work like this that is done.
> I've shared it for free with every single person who has emailed me.
Excited and waiting :) I think it's going to make really cool pen plotter art
- I am taking care of an aging and physically limited parent. It's brought me to my absolute limit. I often say stuff about wanting to be dead but I don't think I've ever been serious about it. It's the kind of thing I am trying to discourage in myself, but I'm trying to be more compassionate with myself in the times that I do.
Why are you so certain? 15 years is a long time to look down that barrel why do you deserve that?
- No, those are the people who refuse to upgrade the old COBOL systems. They are allowed to drive.
- > You don’t quit a job until you have another one lined up. You do your work the best you can for 40 hours a week and leave. If you don’t get all of your work done and they fire you, at least you kept getting a paycheck longer. Don’t let your pride or frustrating keep you from exchanging labor for money to support your addiction to food and shelter.
I don't know what to tell you other than the only different course of action was to kill myself and I didn't want to do that. Repeated trauma in multiple workplaces has effectively robbed me of my career. It's not all the fault of the employers I had, but it's also not 100% my fault either. I struggle with self worth because I cannot understand what my value is anymore. The experiences I have keep telling me I am worth less and less. People are less willing to hire me, to pay me, to even listen to what I have to say.
Having all of this playing in your head 24/7 makes it impossible to view authority as anything but abusive and willfully ignorant. I know they aren't all like that... but then why does this keep happening to me?
I want to go back but I don't know how. It's more than just someone being fussy there is something seriously psychologically wrong, but outwardly I "look" fine so I must be faking it / doing it for attention.
I am tired of pandering to the people who refuse to see me.
> What you described is neither hostile or toxic.
I... didn't even describe the toxic work experiences I have had. The entire impetus to take the actions I did are not written in this post on purpose. I don't want to muddy the waters with conjecture and hearsay. Having been through a nightmare and being told "that wasn't toxic" is the kind of mindset that I am terrified of interacting with (being abused by) in the workplace.
- lol all I can think when I see this is "tommy can you hear me?"
lots of opportunity for pinball wizard jokes / easter eggs
- I'm building a pen plotter machine that is purpose built for multi-color artwork.
So far I have a duet mainboard wired up to motors and a commercial gantry set (openbuilds). I've figured out how to wire up a servo control board to a GPIO pin, and the gcode necessary run the servo up and down.
I'm designing and 3d printing parts for the pen gantry, I have a nice rail / slider setup using linear bearings. I'm almost done working out how the pen holder fits into my gantry setup but I'm struggling a little bit getting this past the finish line.
I already figured out how to generate custom GCODE that takes into account the needs of having no z axis. I need to make a simple web interface that lets me interact with the duet over USB, and this will be running off a raspi. This will allow me more GPIO and flexibility vs just wiring buttons straight to the duet.
I already have some code and logic to generate trace data from bitmap images, I just need to figure out a way to automate it so that the output still looks nice.
Once all that works... if I glue it together I will be able to push button and @robotdrawsyou (https://www.instagram.com/robotdrawsyou)
The goal is to create technology that is indistinguishable from magic. People without the technical understanding of what's going on will just see it as tech junk, but my hope is that by breaking down all the individual parts it will allow people to learn about CNC machines, vector vs raster and what it means for something to actually be a robot.
I still have zero idea how to make money with this. Career is struggling really badly but I am hopeful that what I am working on will allow me to display competency and skill to an employer. That's the fantasy at least.
- The guy in the cave having the midlife crisis and his wife sending him clothes had me in tears. The lost kid in the woods who can hear his dad. The lack of any meaningful gratitude... he just seemed so checked out. I felt so jealous of his wife who still cared. Who kept saying tulips take time.
Not even a complicated storyline but very poignant.
- > a drug fueled orgy of magical thinking
This is just "management" thinking. You can thank your local MBA for poisoning the well for everyone else.
Leaders produce value. "Managers" are dumb parrots.
- I really like those illustrations I hope you keep going with this progress. Looks great and I think it could be a very engaging tool because of its visual appeal.
Don't let the haters get to you. Let him cook people.
- I feel like this is really to the heart of "your vibe attracts your tribe".
It's kinda risky to but something like this in the comments, what if nobody ever sees it? What if it never beeps?
It's just weird enough people (like myself) would do it. I would have if I saw it, but I missed it.
- I think your comment can be boiled down to "management doesn't respect engineers"
That's the fundamental problem. Some MBA or book somewhere convinced people that respect and dignity were optional. Once they realized they could apply this to more than engineers they started painting the entire world with this bullshit.
- > Start a side project that nobody needs but you, purely for the sensation of making a thing that you like.
I did this and it's led to making friends and a lot of really good things in life. It's so good that not being able to give it the attention it needs to flourish is one of the things bringing me down most.
I can see what I want just beyond the fence in front of me... I don't know how to get over it yet.
- I'm building some really good new friends, but I don't get to see them often due to distance.
I am also kind of fearful of leaning on people too much.
Getting to see more people regularly has helped with the deep meaningful vs casual acquaintance thing. Right now it's a battle of attrition to have enough opportunities that some more significant opportunities can happen organically.
The harder I try to force it the less progress I make. It's very difficult to deal with even being able to observe it. A perverse target fixation.
- I work from home... which is it's own set of problems.
One thing I did going through divorce is choose to live somewhere that there are a lot of people around. I have a few restaurants and bars within walking distance... I have found a huge improvement in quality of life just by getting to know some of the bartenders and locals.
- It's taking every ounce of self control to not quit right now. Living like this is... not living.
- Your suggestion is sound but my mental acuity is in the fucking dumpster. I am bad at my job because I am so stressed and upset about my inability to control my life. I'm doing some of the worst work ever... it takes me so long to do things and I'm just below the standard I know I can operate at.
So while the "keep working and look for work" thing is reasonable... it's just not for me. I can't. I can't keep up. I am so exhausted that everything is breaking down around me.
Beyond my refusal to engage in something that I don't believe can be successful... who the fuck wants to hire someone who is so disregulated and upset? I don't understand how i can ever come back from this.
- > Another thing I'd recommend: try to find some solace in hobbies or personal interests.
One of my favorite, most rewarding projects has been making fishing lures. Losing my house to divorce means I no longer have a space I can do the sandblasting, painting or other stinky fume-inducing work.
Not being able to do what I love makes me so full of self hate and shame.
My project has gained organic leads in a way NOTHING else I've made or worked on has. Every week I get a message or two asking if they can buy lures. My friends are a marketing MACHINE who have made great video content about the product and keep doing so.
I have everything I need but it's "not enough to live on" so I can't jump in with both feet.
I CANT EVEN MAKE MORE. Even if I had a space to make them, I'm dealing with a supply issue where I can't get the one raw material / part I use. I have ideas on how I can manufacture them but I DO NOT HAVE THE MENTAL CAPACITY to do all this on top of my job. It makes me feel like I am failing at the one chance I have to get out of this fucking hellhole. I can't do it. It's slipping through my fingers and I'll never get out.
It's like looking into the future, will there be a point where you can just render the entire scene in voxels at high enough res where it's indistinguishable from modern 3d graphics?