I will empathize with you there. I totally want to understand everything too. I LOVE being elbow deep in code for hours on end, especially late nights, so, much, FUN!!!
It is just now, I don't have to do that to actually build something meaningful, my ability to build is increased by some factor, and it is only increasing.
And coding LLM's have become a great teacher for me, and I learn much faster, for when I do want to dig deeper into the code, I can ask very nuanced questions about what certain code is doing, or how it works and it does a fairly good job of explaining it. Similar to how a real person would if I were in meat space at an office. Which I don't get that opportunity anymore in this remote life.
It is just now, I don't have to do that to actually build something meaningful, my ability to build is increased by some factor, and it is only increasing.
And coding LLM's have become a great teacher for me, and I learn much faster, for when I do want to dig deeper into the code, I can ask very nuanced questions about what certain code is doing, or how it works and it does a fairly good job of explaining it. Similar to how a real person would if I were in meat space at an office. Which I don't get that opportunity anymore in this remote life.