It seems like you don't even know what you want. If it's a red flag, you should just end the date fast. If it's not, have fun with astrology instead of just ,,faking it''. The cool thing is as it's all made up, you can show your creative side :)
At the same time if you can think about ending yourself for something light and fun, you should go to psychologist to process why it's the case.
At the same time if you can think about ending yourself for something light and fun, you should go to psychologist to process why it's the case.